My whole life I thought I was supposed to be a ‘good example’
or to shine my light brightly so to speak. But I read a blog the other day and
it really hit home to me that we aren’t really supposed to be a good example
for other people. We are called to be ‘real’
and Jesus is to be the example. So here’s
me being real……this whole adoption thing is just plain hard. And I mean to-the-core-hard. This month for me seems to be the worst for some
reason. Many of you have been asking and
I have probably plastered a smile and said “Great” and you notice my blog has
been quiet but it wasn’t me being honest.
Here’s honesty:
*May marked one full year of actively pursuing adoption and
that date for some reason has been hard for me to take in. One full year of more paperwork than you can
imagine. One year of praying. One year of what seems like little progress.
*Our paperwork has been in legalization (in Haiti) since
March which is where they review everything and approve/deny everything we have
done. We cannot move forward until this
is done. Calling all prayer warriors….if
you would join us in praying us forward and that they accept everything that
would be wonderful!
*I know that God
is in total control and that the wait has a purpose. He has a plan for all of this. I know that.
I trust that. I trust Him. But the wait is unbearable some days. To
know that our paperwork is already in country and that our child is already at
an orphanage and yet will live there for probably 1 or 2 years before we can bring
them home breaks my heart.
The months of pain that we will go through will still not
compare to what our child will go through.
This process is just hard all the way around. Honestly….waiting stinks. There I said it. There may be a purpose for it but it still
stinks. I’m just sayin.
